Post by everlastes on Feb 27, 2012 9:21:20 GMT
Situation in brief, he was really interested at the start and eventually so was i. We got really close, well we couldn't be far closer but it wasn't official of our relationship yet. Over night he tells me he wants nothing to do with me & i think that was because he was somewhat embarrassed by our age gap. So i kept asking him about it, he kept blocking me from having any contact with him but he made me feel special and amazing, just the feeling of being the centre of his attention. I wasn't going to let him erase me from his life that easily, so i made him open up a bit. Slowly i won him back over enough but he never explained himself for exactly why. He still expressed his feelings for me, you could tell. But then him & this girl sort of ganged up on me making me set them up together, i didn't refuse because i didn't want to cause conflict between any of us. They were together for merely 2 days. Biggest fail ever. They also had an age gap but a smaller one compared to mine and his. Almost straight after i was his shoulder to cry on metaphorically. He came back to me but when i wanted to start meeting up again he saw i was still interested and began drifting away from me. The person i know became the person i knew, fewer chats, i missed our everlasting amusing chats. But i ran into him again, he slept over my mates house on the same night as me & was forced to at least talk to me.We were locked in the same room and he tried the tricks he did on the first time we met, suddenly he was interested again and despite his obvious indecisiveness i couldn't care less. I had his pleasant self back again. We kept meeting, the relationship was real, it was like a fantasy. Nothing matters when i'm with him. A sort of fairytale, everything is forgotten, the world is gone and it's just me and him vs the world. But then i lost my virginity to him & he ran off again. He wanted to be gone. I learnt my lesson, i didn't chase after him again. But so much as talking to him or seeing him around and one smile and i'm back to the beginning attempting to forget him. He manipulated me because he knew he could, because he knew my feelings for him. but i will give him some praise for he did try to leave me from the start. It was me who stopped him. I lost my most precious thing to someone who didn't care in any way at all. But i don't have regrets, i have the good memory's which i adore more than ever.
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