Yes, no, maybe so?

[Maggie]

Hey guys. I’m really sorry for not being all that active – my muse has been on the fritz and my schedule’s suddenly been tossed up into the air. I’m just putting out this warning for the possibility I might not be active for a little while longer but I think I might be wrong. Starting tomorrow I’m going to be a little incapacitated until around Saturday or Sunday. Though depending on how things go it can turn out to be shorter or longer then that.

I believe I’ll have my laptop with me during this time however but I can’t promise my ability to stay on for long or to muster up a lot of muse to roleplay. It’s going to be a tiring experience to say the least, but I want to remain active despite that. > Feel free to smack me with a fish PM me if you need me to reply to something, have any questions or… well, anything! xD I probably won’t be ‘gone’ but on the off chance I can’t get online for whatever reason, this is why. My sincerest apologies! D: <3

[Victoria]

Aww, I'll miss you Miss Pen! -pout-

Don't press yourself to post if it just isn't there. The site is supposed to be fun, not a chore.

Good luck with that difficult matter you failed to define! -curiousness- xD

[Alastair]

Here's slapping you with a fish just as you requested! [gotta love them python boys]
Hope this weekend doesn't stress you out too much! Enjoy the comic relief

[Maggie]

Thanks you guys~ ;3; <333^{(and pff that made my night Lex <3)}

The whole reason behind this is a long-ish story. xD; It's kind of hard to explain what's going on and then why it's happening and.... blech. I'm just going into the hospital to get something rechecked and then staying until Saturday/Sunday to be monitored and wait for the answer - which is the worst part in my opinion. >:/ The Waiting Game and I are not friends.

[Maggie]

Auuuuuuuuuuugh I'M NOT DEAD~!

I'm SO freaking sorry for not being on in forever! ;__; I didn't expect to be gone this long! The last surgery took more then I anticipated out of me and I've been pretty much sedated all week long chugging down pills whenever I'm really awake.

It turns out I have to go in again though (starting tomorrow ugh) for generally the same procedure but a little bit more... deeper. I can't give a definite timeline of how long I'll be in there this time as it all depends on the diagnosis this biopsy brings, but I will have my laptop with me this time so I will do my best to get on! (Even if the doctors are against it. They can't keep me down for long! >)

Again I'm really really sorry for holding up roleplay’s and not getting online. It tore me up everyday I was in recovery knowing I couldn't get online and even more so when I couldn't even get online when I was home. I'm keeping a checklist of things to do while I'm in and replying to all the threads here is at the top!

[Victoria]

PENRELAX! Recover, get better, and then worry about us. The more you stress yourself out the longer it'll take to get better, and then the longer it will take until you can post freely.

SO RELAX. D:<

'causewemissyou...

[Alastair]

Don't worry darling! We miss you but we understand! Here's thinkin' of ya - feel better soon!

[Maggie]

.. Augh. So I decided to shut my self away from the computer and focus at the current problems at hand. Thing is I could never settle the sharp stab of guilt by not getting on and replying to everything. I really enjoy roleplaying here and formed a bond with forum, you guys and the characters here. It really hurt just to stay away for such a long time and I cannot apologize enough for that.

I’ve decided that I can’t keep dodging the bullet on this either. I’m sure you’re all curious to know why I’ve been gone and I’m here to say it straight. Earlier last year, December 30th to be exact, I was diagnosed with Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. I finished treatment officially on June 15 and we assumed that we were finished with chemo and radiation. Up till several weeks ago the doctors spotted some suspicious reactions to my latest body scans. We decided to check it out and after three surgeries in three weeks we finally found that the small reaction spot on the scans was in fact a relapse.

Among other things popping up, I had my latest surgery last Tuesday and started chemo again the next morning. I finished my first round earlier this morning and should be going home sometime mid-day tomorrow, but I just couldn’t stay away any longer leaving you guys hanging.

Sorry if that’s a lot to take in, but I don’t like leaving people in the dark about things. Especially if it keeps you guys from getting a full, enjoyable roleplay experience here. I want to be active here so badly, but I can’t say I’ll be on every day. It really just depends on how my body reacts to this stuff. I won’t let it keep me down though – I’ve fallen to far in love with Branborough and its members to just give up on it. <3

If there are any threads I currently need to reply to PLEASE PM ME. I can't honestly say I remember all the threads my characters are currently in and if you've been waiting for a reply, please don't hesitate and send me a note asking for me to type one up! D:

[Alastair]

*hugs*
My grandmother has Hodgkin's Lymphoma, so while I can't say I know what it's like, I can say I've seen how hard it is to deal with and how much energy it takes. You're very brave, Pen. <3
I know I've missed you around the board and I'm pretty damn sure everyone else has too. It's good to hear from you and to have you back as much as you can manage. Love and support!

Lexi

[Victoria]

Aw, Pen! Why didn't you tell us sooner? Here I was suspecting that you had some form of flu! Dearest, you are infinitely precious and very missed here. Just don't stress. This place is supposed to be fun, not stressful.

I'm confident that you will be just fine. You're a brave, spunky and beautiful individual and you'll get through it, and then I'm sure you'll be just about part of the furniture here.

So, here are your threads:
Maggie: What the River Says (Griffin's turn), Topsy Turvy (Cosmin's turn)
Maddock: Wandering (Naia's turn)
Cecrid: None
...so you see, you have not been negligent at all. You can bug these respective members if you want, or you can join another thread (or create one) while you wait. There is a entire-site thread list by date here (clicky!).

And some new stuff around here that you might want to check out are the new and updated skins! And the fact that you won top poster, in spite of the fact that you've been battling cancer. You're a super-woman, girlie. I love you, too, and am glad to hear from you again!

[Enya Ayre]

): Aww honey, I know we haven't even met properly, but my thoughts are with you, and I look forward to your return (: <3

[Maggie]

IT'S ALIIIIIIVE- … cough, ahem. Yes. Anyway.

HOLY MOTHER OF PEARL I deserve a good slap to the face! Not even with a fish (though if that'd make you happy then you're more then welcome to do so!)! I am so incredibly sorry for taking so long to get back and pretty much dropping off the face of the earth there. Rereading my posts I can't believe how much of an idiot I was for saying all those things and never going through with them. Argh, just kill me now. <_>

Ho'kay so, what happened after my last update was that I got several more rounds of chemo and then got a small break before my mother and I went down to North Carolina to finish up the treatment. While it had it's ups and downs (whilst at the same time being pretty uneventful. I don't know how to explain it but it's amazingly somehow possible. ), I'm going to have to admit I don't think I was really able to do much of anything while I was down there – which meant no activity just about everywhere. I was pretty much a nauseated vegetable the entire time. Once I was finally released and about a week of out-patient treatment down in NC we were able to head back home in June (on my birthday to be exact, har-de-har) and ever since the entire family has been trying to settle back into our previous routine. We're currently facing a strange dilemma however due to the fact that the scans I got yesterday came back with some sort of reaction around the original tumor area and liver. Supposedly it could be just an infection.. But I feel like if I say that for sure then something's going to turn around and bite me in the pa-tootie. I'm fervently trying to remain optimistic though, since I need to get out of the hospital business for srs guys.


BUT ANYWAY ENOUGH DEPRESSING TALK. I'm already cracking my knuckles in anticipation as to what future roleplay's may bring about for Branborough and it's inhabitants. If I should ever happen to dissapear again feel free to contact me on the email on my profile or any of others on Maddock's or Cedric's profiles. I am once again sorry and hope that you all can forgive me for vanishing without notice. I also thank you all DEARLY for all your kind words and for being so understanding. Iloveyouguys~ ;m; <333333

[Victoria]

Hunny babe, first: -huggles-. Second: It's not your fault, and either way, although we missed you bunches and worried about you, real life comes first. If anyone has an excuse to disappear whenever they want, it's you. I knew that and I kept your accounts up through the activity checks because I had faith that you would come back to us when you could. The point is that you didn't want to leave us, you had to; and so thank you for not forgetting about us, and for coming back here like the blazing light that you are and filling us all up with happiness and relief.

I luffs you too, Pen! ^-^ Now go have some fun, you silly kitty. <3

[Maggie]

Autghnrjgb Vic I love you so much I think it hurts sometimes. ;___; <3 <3 <3 <3 -tacklehuggles-

I got myself to sit down yesterday and start to look through what I need to do and things that I had planned to work on before disappearing like I did - which hopefully I can finish soon - so I promise I'll do my best not to let myself slip away like before. I'm determined to make an effort and get back into the swing of things here. > I shall work my proverbial patootie off!

... If that makes any sense that is, eep. Anyway - Pen's ultra super plan of posting things, awaaay~

[Lexi]

*glomps in and huggles*
PEN, goodness gracious I missed you!
It's so good to have you back, I'm glad you're feeling better. Hope things stay better! If you ever want to thread with any of my many charries just hit me up!